Grr. Frustrated.

One would think that with all the good things going on, I'd have no problem finding will power.  One would think that the fact that I'm starting to teach Zumba classes next week would give me more than enough incentive.  One would also think that I could find the brain power to make it finally click.  Obviously, One would be wrong.  I just love sweet stuff!  Blizzards, cookies, donuts, cupcakes...all of it.  I have a hard time turning it down or walking past it.  I have to find that one thing, that one thought, that one method that finally makes the ambition stick.  I though when I got down to 196 that I'd be so excited that I wouldn't allow myself to go back up.  and now I sit at 207 again wondering what the hell happened?  I happened, that's what.  Seriously?  I should not need someone to hold my hand and tell me that I shouldn't eat bad things.  I should really be able to do it all alone.  So why am I not?  hmm...I think cause I just don't wanna.  Maybe I don't want it bad enough.  Maybe it's too much work for my sissy little self to handle. 

I say NO.  NO NO NO!  I am going to do this!  I'll finish the bad stuff today.  I'll be done.  I slipped and had a DQ fountain Pepsi this weekend...and it was sooooo goooood.  So now I move on, 'x' out the slip up days and rack my brain for a solution to my food issues.  Beacause, honestly...there just has to be one, right?

Here's last week's photos...a day before my dreaded photo and weigh in tomorrow...ugh

 6/8/11   207

6/8/11   207