I didn't want to post this, but I will. I imploded tonight. All alone in the house and I started ok. had a can of turkey chili for dinner. Then had a piece of leftover pizza, a cupcake, a bowl of Fruity Pebbles and a bowl of Lucky Charms. WTF?? The cereal was with skim milk, does that help? And I only had 400 calories through the day (I'm assuming that's a contributing factor to my binging tonight) and an intense boxing workout with Josh this morning. Still...the guilt of eating what I shouldn't have is not pleasant.
This stems from the fact that I did so well yesterday, and woke up to a 2 pound gain on the scale. That pissed me off and started the 'why bother' thoughts in my head. Very detrimental. Once again I shall regroup and kick my ass into gear again. Starting now, not in the morning, now.
It's a big step for me to even admit I ate all that. Normally I would just pretend it never happened and then wonder why the scale is not moving in the right direction. I guess that shows that this blog accountability thing is working so far.
...I promise...the humor will be back tomorrow... :)
Thursday, June 16, 2011
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it is so hard to be honest about our mis-steps. I admire that you are being so vulnerable and honest. No guilt...today is a new day! Eating more often throughout the day helps keep my blood sugar even (preventing spikes=hunger) and then I am not so famished late in the day looking for any spare corn dogs, candy bars, etc!
This post and one of the earlier ones made me cry. I literally feel like I'm reading what someone wrote about MY life or what I'D write if I had a blog. I am in the exact same boat as you. I was down to 167 and then ate like a sow all through the holidays and can't stop. Up to 204! :( Let's motivate each other, okay? We are Scorpios and we don't give up! We WILL kick the ass of this endless cycle!!! Have you read Portia's book? I got halfway though it and it is so good! While I have never been a purger, it's still relevant. You should check it out!!!
Thanks girls! I know I can do this...and you can too Chris. You did it once! I have not read the book...but I'll check it out now!
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