losing weight sucks

Ok i take that back.  Losing weight doesn't suck.  Actually losing is fantastic!  However, the sacrifices and work that have to be done in order to lose said weight?  Yeah, that totally sucks.  And I'm completely fed up with it.  I worked hard for 2 weeks and had no benefit from it.  I don't meticulously count for 2 1/2 days and I gain 3 f**king pounds.  The un-fairness in that alone is enough to make me binge on chocolate and candy and pastry for a month.  If I wasn't so terrified that my husband saw absolutely nothing attractive about me any more, I'd totally just give up.  I don't like feeling like this, but I don't like depriving myself either.  I got up this morning and just felt old.  I didn't like it. 

Here are my top reasons to scare myself into losing:
*  I have to be on stage dancing a tap routine in 4 months
*  I have to be on a beach in Hilton Head in 5 months (hopefully)
*  My before pics...eeeeshh (shudder)
*  I really don't think Kel's attracted to me at this weight (um, at all)
*  Seriously, I want to wear my jeans again.  I love yoga pants and all, but something without an elastic waist would be nice.
*  I'd like to shop in misses and not plus again.
*  I want to embarass my kids in ways other than being a fat mom

Today's budget: 1461
B:  Shakeology w/ skim milk and 1T low sugar red raspberry jam (258)
L: Hydroxycut
     HC ched bac chicken meal (260)
S: Fiber One Choc Caramel Coc. bar (130)
S2: Chobani Raspberry (140)
D: Turkey Brat (2)  corn (1/2 c) and Mandarin orange 458
E: Zumba 45m (-433)
plan NET: 814