It's all on me.

I've said it before, I'll say it again; Losing weight sucks.  And for you weight watchers...yes, lifestyle changes suck too.  So there.  But if it's going to happen, it has to be me that does it.  I can't count on Kelly to tell me not to eat something I shouldn't.  He's really not good at it anyway.  I shouldn't rely on my kids to smack me and yell at me when I want to buy cake at the grocery store.  Although, they are VERY good at that, and I think they enjoy it a bit too much.  Yep, I have to make it work.  I have to make better choices, and hit the gym when I don't want to.  I love Zumba and all, but 2 cardio classes a week is not sufficient exercise.  I need weights, and I need to do it myself. 

I bought a bathing suit...and made sure it was a 2 piece so I could take proper before pictures.  Hopefully I can make Kelly take them tonight, and I'll start that infamous scrapbook this weekend.  Hopefully that bathing suit will start to look more and more attractive on me.  Then maybe I'll actually wear it when we take that vacation we keep talking about...lol.  At that point I can cross off "wear a bikini is public" from my bucket book.

Yesterday's eats:
B: Hydroxycut
     Special K Strawberry shake (180)

L:Hydroxycut
   6" turkey breast sub w/ provolone (380)

AS: Peanut Butter Crackers (190)

D: Strip Steak (526) (not sure on size, but I'll go heavy to be sure)
     Mashed potatos (584) (again with portion)
     Corn (123)

LS: Trail Bologna (110)

Ex: Zumba 45 (-433)
Budget:1504  Intake:2093  Burn:433  Net 1660  (+156)

Should have taken it easy on the potatoes, and nixed the trail bologna...totally un-necessary.  bah.