detox=fail. Let's try Sensa day 1

The detox idea was a huge bust...Lemonberry put the brakes on that.  But the Sensa did come in yesterday so I started that with breakfast this morning.  First thing I noticed, is that I didn't notice it.  It did not change the taste of my food at all.  Granted, this may change from food to food.  But my Smart One breakfast sandwich tasted the same as it did 2 days ago.  That my friends, is a very good start.

Since I keep using the excuse of 'heat' or 'rain' to not do my outdoor walks, I decided to actually USE my treadmill in the basement.  Wouldn't you know...I popped on the tunes and jammed out for the 3.2 miles.  AND I shaved 10 minutes off my time!  I obviously stay more consistant on the machine.  My average pace was about 4.0.  I was very happy with that, and hopefully that will encourage me to hop on it more often.

I'm trying to be more dilligent about staying in my calorie range.  Alyson and Hailey help a great deal.  I've gotten them to understand that yelling at me makes me belligerent, but a sideways look accompanied by a small, quiet "Mom...?" will get me to put down whatever I'm about to shove in my mouth.  And it's working!  I went out to lunch with Alyson, and orered a Pepsi, thinking 'what the heck I'm out to lunch with my kid.'  As soon I said it she looked at me, threw a subtle "mom" my way, and it was enough to switch.  Granted, I switched to lemonade but the goal was to not drink soda.  The fact that Alyson busted me was all I needed to stay on track. 

After the holiday I hit a new all time high of 226.  This week I have tried to be consistant with calories and at least getting some exercise in, if only in the bathroom at work (giggle).  I'm down 3 lbs as of yesterday.  Hopefully the scale will be kind to me today as well.

So here's to trudging along and making the best of what time and self control I have!  Here here!

Detox day One

Ohhh my.  Let me just say that I am juggling way too many things right now.  The only thing I can have complete control over (well for the most part anyway) is what I put in my mouth, and what I do with my body.  That being said...  I'll start (or make an effort to) my detox today.  Not that I've been totally out of control.  But I did see a problem last night when I was making a huge chocolate chip pancake at 11:00pm.  That's not normal, nor is it healthy.  If want to see real change, I have to make a real change.  I told Kelly today to tell me no.  I said "I will lie, I will sneak, I will pout, I will cry, I will get mad.  But tell me f'ing NO!!"  He has a hard time with that. 

I ordered the free trial of Sensa today as well.  I'll post on that daily or so.  I just need to focus and stick to a schedule.  Well, that and stop shoveling food in my mouth :)